megane-kun

Thank you. I’ve come to more or less a similar conclusion with regards to my issues. I’ll deal with what I can deal with, with what I have, but for everything else, I’ll just leave it be, hopefully in the past.

Just as a note, I don’t consider myself as having undergone the so-called Asian parenting, with parents employing not just corporal punishment, but also emotional blackmail to get their children to achieve academically, and save their faces; but I think it’s the best word to describe what I’ve gone through. However, my siblings turned out alright (hopefully). I guess I‌ might have gone relatively unscathed had some things in my teenage years have gone differently.

The thing is, there was no explanation, nor an attempt at it. Parents back in my generation weren’t supposed to.

Parenting style where I grew up tend to be “don’t explain, don’t let your children ask, have them just follow.” Corporal punishment is also normal, with being hit by clothes hangers, belts, or really, whatever they can get hands on. If that’s not enough, we are asked to “meditate and discover what actually went wrong” while kneeling on (sea) salt for at least fifteen minutes.

In one occasion, I was lasooed on the neck by a belt and having my face hit by the belt buckle. Of course, it was my fault, no questions asked. There was no explanation, and I was left alone in a room to recuperate.

Oh, did I even explain that I eventually learned (quite early on, actually) that I shouldn’t behave in “destructive ways”? Quite early on, as far as I‌ remember, well, at least while my mom’s around. Again, I should emphasize this: there was no explanation, no attempt to, they weren’t supposed to.

And oh, counseling? Professional psychiatric help? Not a thing that is affordable where I‌ live. Not America, but might as well be a cheap clone of it.

Fair enough.

My mom had been emotionally manipulative that it instilled in me that showing affection in anything will result in that thing being used against me. If that’s not enough, she mocks me for the things I’ve shown interest on, usually telling me it’s “useless” or “a hindrance”. Later on, I learnt to fake emotion and attachment to things that I could very well afford losing. Moreover, if I can lose everything and anything I love at any moment, there’s really no use being attached to anything.

Anyways, I was ready to acknowledge that it’s but one aspect of parenting. Parenting is hard, having seen my parents deal with us siblings, and then seeing my siblings deal with their own children. Parents (as a rule) try their best to raise their children in the best way they know how, for better or for worse. And even if my mom did gave me this trauma I’ve given up in dealing with (long story), I still love her.

Wouldn’t that end up with a kid who values nothing, not even their own life?

My mom used a similar technique to get me to do what she wants me to do, and I ended up, well, the way I am right now. I hide a lot of things from her, and if necessary, only pretend to show interest in things I don’t give a damn about just to have a semblance of a personality. Worse, even if I‌ die right after this comment, I wouldn’t mind one bit.

Looks great, and it works great on my desktop. I also quite like its simplicity.

However, after playing around with it for a bit, I noticed one glaring flaw. It stores its playlists in one (potentially) huge playlists.json file. It’s great if you’re manually creating playlists from scratch. However, I’ve had several playlists that I’ve compiled from my time in iTunes, and then Media‌Monkey, all of which are now in an m3u format. I can play them in Harmonoid just fine, though it only shows song info for the first song in the playlist, even though it does play the rest of the songs just fine.

Meanwhile, since Harmonoid also has a mobile version, I also played around with it. My playlists worked better over there as it shows the track information for all tracks, not just the first one. I haven’t dug up the files to see how they’re being stored, though.

I guess a feature like “playlist import/export” can be requested. Personally though, looking at the JSON data within the playlist.json file, however, IDK:

{
    "playlists": [
        {
            "name": "History",
            "id": -2,
            "tracks": [
                {
                    "uri": "file:///home/user/Music/ArtistName/AlbumName/TrackNumberAndTrackName.mp3",
                    "trackName": "TrackName",
                    "albumName": "AlbumName",
                    "trackNumber": 1,
                    "discNumber": 1,
                    "albumLength": 1,
                    "albumArtistName": "AlbumArtistName",
                    "trackArtistNames": [
                        "TrackArtistNames"
                    ],
                    "genres": [
                        "Genre"
                    ],
                    "timeAdded": 1554270035,
                    "duration": 0,
                    "bitrate": 0
                },
                // More tracks…
            ]
        },
        {
            "name": "Liked Songs",
            "id": -1,
            "tracks": []
        }
    ]
}

Hm, yeah, that’s why I thought of comparing it to the zero-width-joiner. However, what I want to know if there are dangers that are unique to that character.

Even after looking up U+3164 (Hangul Filler), and reading (and rereading) the quoted paragraph:

The Hangul Filler character is used to introduce eight-byte Hangul composition sequences and to stand in for an absent element (usually an empty final) in such a sequence. Unicode includes the Wansung code Hangul Filler in the Hangul Compatibility Jamo block for round-trip compatibility, but uses its own system (with its own, differently used, filler characters) for composing Hangul. The KS X 1001 Hangul composition system is not used in Unicode, and the filler renders merely as an empty space; KS X 1001 composition sequences using modern jamo may be mapped to precomposed characters in Unicode. For round-trip compatibility, Unicode also includes the N-byte Hangul code Hangul Filler separately in the Halfwidth and Fullwidth Forms block, named the Halfwidth Hangul Filler.

I don’t think I’m any closer to getting it.

Even more importantly, I don’t get why it’s any more dangerous than the various unprintable special characters (like zero-width-joiner, for example). Is it just because it’s relatively obscure? Is it because it has a more complicated use (introducing, and optionally being a part of a Hangul composition sequence)?

I’m looking at this as “various little breaking points” some very trivial, but when taken as a whole, could break someone’s tolerance, causing someone to be an eX-user.

Don’t give them ideas. They are evil enough, and the system corrupted enough for them to actually do that.

It seems it has already made it to All (TopDay).